Anyway.. back to what I was saying.
I bought that cd
that cd you were listening to on the way back..
the words, the voice that poured
into your head
yeah you should have read that
from the beginning!
those words that filled your head as you drifted off to sleep...as you fell into a slumber...
I watched you...the bright flourescent light of inside reflecting off the windows... the dreary black nights sky outside....the perfect alibi.
the perfect excuse to watch you and study your face...
I began drawing but it wasn't
I had to just keep watching...actually
study your face.
I guess you're thinking right
now that it may be stalker- ish behaviour...
well it wasn't
it's my choice to watch
my choice to study the life mine.
And after that night we listened to her.
We listened as those six minutes fifty two seconds poured into our ears and poked at our hearts...
I think this was the only time that our hearts were moved that night.
I wanted them to.
I wanted to be close to you...
But you just couldn't let me in
As we lay there
under the covers
we stared up at the world created by the damp patched that spotted your ceiling....
and we just listened.
I don't regret it you know.
I don't regret the fact that you are here.
Or the fact that you used me...
It wasn't in a bad way
but you did use me but... I was happy
to be useful...
He needed someone
He needed her...
He needed to be held
He needed someone to sleep next to as he
was thinking about how he was going to end it... with her
She needed someone
She needed to be held
She needed someone to sleep next to
to sleep next to as she was trying to forget about what was actually going
He took hold of her hand...
began to massage it.
began to show some sort of affection
she didn't tell him
she didn't tell him how much it hurt
that it was bruised.
he should have remembered...
but this was all she wanted...
all she wanted was some show of care...
something to show that this mattered...
the lack of emotional affection caused her pain...
yet now it was also his final show of physical affection that hurt her to the bone...